I haven’t written anything in a long time. Before I was really good at it, but now I feel like all my talent has disappeared. Has that ever happened to you? It has to me more than once this year. Because of my bad health and constant laryngitis I had to give up singing, which I love so much. It was something that was really important to me and now…it’s just gone.
I have no idea what I’m good at anymore. At times I wish that someone would just show up and tell me “This is what you were destined for”. I am good at many things, but I just feel like I’m not extraordinary at anything. In a way, I’d rather be bad at many things and be amazing, special, a rare talent at just one thing, something I’d love to do. (lol I said the word “thing” so many times in this paragraph, but I am not in the mood to change it)
Soon I will have to choose what career I want to pursue. Nothing comes to my mind. If I want to make money (which is something my family would want from me) I will probably choose economics or political science. I have good grades so I wouldn’t have a problem getting into a college I want. But I am worried that a job like that would kill me. No excitement, no soul, just money. I mean if everyone just wanted to pursue a career which would make them rich what kind of world would this be? We don’t need a world full of economists, we need variety.
I am passionate about journalism, music, drama, history, literature, languages, psychology..Life seems too short. It would be nice if you had time to try everything you want. Sadly, most of the time your life only allows you to do just one, so you better choose well.
One of my wishes is to move to a foreign country and travel a lot. Hopefully, one day, I will live in the UK, Sweden or the Netherlands. Whatever I do, I want to build a big career and be able to support myself. I know that I don’t want to get married before I’m 30. At 25-26 I can picture myself living in an apartment, alone or with my friend, in London with two cats (I know it sounds ridiculous, but it’s just perfect to me).
I know that life doesn’t always end up being what you want it to be. It can get worse, but also better. I don’t take anything out of the equation. I might end up being spotted by some film director and end up being an actress (a girl can dream you know) or maybe even an archeologist or a photographer. The options are endless. People often tell me that it’s best not to plan your life, but I can’t help myself. My imagination is wild.
I’m not sure anyone is going to read this, but if someone does I have some questions for you. Do you have any plans? What kind of career do you want to have or already have?
What kind of life do you want to live?